It's incredible to me that I am 1.5 yrs out of treatment. I honestly never thought I would survive this long. My diagnosis is "an anomaly ". Those words are typically used when the doctors, who have seen so many different types of cancer , aren't really sure what to do with you.

I recently went to see my neuroradiologist for a follow up from my surgery. That day I was feeling fantastic. I even told him how I've weaned myself from all pain meds. And then two days later it changed.

It's like my body heard my elation And decided to gently remind me of everything it had endured. This body, who carried and birthed two children,who was once able to run, lift weights and know little pain, decided I needed to slow down. Pain in the front right and back left. This isnt all new pain. Pain I thought I had rid a fond adieu to has crept back.

I lay here convincing myself that it's all fine and once again, those words, "my new normal". Time will tell......